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The Loneliness of Special Needs Parents

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The Loneliness of Special Needs Parents

Special needs parenting comes with a whole host of emotions that can be difficult to deal with. One of the most difficult for so many of us is the isolation we feel. When our children are diagnosed, we tend to pour ourselves into the diagnosis. We research, talk to experts, doctors, therapists, special education professionals, all in an effort to help our kids have the best life possible.

In all the preparation and planning we do to help our children, we fail to prepare ourselves for the journey. We don’t realize just how life-altering having a special needs child will be. We might find ourselves going through a period of denial, then we go through the grieving cycle.

Unless you’re one of the lucky few, the isolation can almost become an even bigger battle than the diagnosis.

This post addresses some of the hard realities of special needs parenting. I am real, and honest in posts like these because sugar coating the truth isn’t helpful. My goals in writing honestly about the difficulties of special needs parenting is to bring awareness to those on the outside looking in; and, to give comfort to those in the trenches by letting them know they’re not alone.

The hard truths of special needs parenting are no way a reflection of how we feel about our kids. We love our special needs kids and would move mountains for them. They have brought so many blessings to our lives as well. But those blessings do not mean we can’t talk about the hard things too. This post should not be taken as a complaining mom, but rather as a mom who is just being real, open, and honest.

The Early Years

When our special needs children are still toddlers the isolation doesn’t really set it yet. Play dates are still relatively easy because our children are still at an age where the mommies and the babies are all on the floor together participating. Depending on the diagnosis our children has, there might not be a huge developmental gap between our kids and our friend’s kids.

During this time we still have our friendships. We can still visit each other’s houses without much thought for accommodating our child’s needs. Sitting on the floor chatting with other moms while our children play together with a little guidance is still a reality.

The early signs of isolation do start to present itself during the first few years, but we usually don’t see it. We spend a considerable amount of time traveling for doctors, specialists, throwing ourselves into therapy interventions. We can’t go on as many playdates, meet at the park as often, or join in on a walk with the neighbours because our schedules revolve around all of these appointments.

When the Isolation Escalates

Then it happens. Our kids start getting older, but they’re not meeting milestones. Not only that, but the gap between our special needs child’s abilities and that of their peers grows. What was once a small dip we could easily step over has suddenly become as wide as the grand canyon.

Suddenly, we can’t do playdates. On the rare occasion we’re still invited for a play date we find ourselves facing hard choices. While other kids are now free to run and play, our child isn’t capable. For special needs moms, this means we have to choose. We stay with our child and help them participate with the other kids as much as possible; or, we sit and socialize with the other moms (making our child sit with us).

No one wins in this scenario. Either we as moms miss out on a conversation with other moms, or our child misses out on being with her peers. This, of course, is happening at a time when these relationships are crucial to us. The worst part is, those on the outside of special needs parenting don’t see it.

I can’t tell you how many times I have chosen to be by Ladybug’s side, excluding myself from the circle of moms and no one stopped to think of coming alongside me or joining us. No one realizes that if my kids are with, I can’t participate. While it’s easy to say that it’s only for an hour or two. The emotional toll of this isolation escalates when it happens every. single. time.

Isolated at Home

Of course, the big part of isolation comes from the fact that it takes a LOT of work go to places with our special needs kids. Most people assume that this special needs mom gig gets easier with time, but that simply isn’t true. While we have accepted their diagnosis and our new reality, their level of care increases with time. Meaning many things actually become more difficult.

So many places are not as accessible as the non-disabled community would like to believe. Adequate bathroom facilities are becoming a bigger problem as our children grow. The ability to contain an autistic meltdown gets much more difficult as their bodies get bigger and stronger. We need to consider things like wheelchair accessibility, and the amount of sensory stimulation our kids will be exposed to before going anywhere.
Many times it’s just easier to stay home.

The Isolation is a Natural Progression

The worst part of the isolation reality special needs families face is that it’s no one’s fault. There is a natural progression to it. As our kids get older we don’t participate in the same activities. While our lives revolve around doctors, procedures, and therapies everyone else is pouring their time into sports practice, dance lessons, gymnastics, boy/girl scouts and every other “normal” activity kids participate in.

Our paths no longer cross. We no longer relate to each other. It’s hard and it takes an effort to be friends with a special needs mom. I don’t say that to sound harsh, but it’s the truth. It is much easier to maintain friendships with other moms you can relate to. It’s a fact. Yes, it’s a sad fact, but it’s still a fact.

Babysitters are Hard to Come By

This is a fact that many don’t even think of. When we look for a babysitter we need to consider things like the person’s ability to lift our child who is completely dependent on us for transfers. Are they comfortable with the fact that it’s possible our child will have a seizure? Can they recognize when our child is overstimulated and about to have a meltdown if they don’t intervene?

I’ll be honest, most people are freaked out by the idea of babysitting our special needs children. I get it, really. I mean this is like foreign territory if it’s not your everyday life. It’s intimidating, I acknowledge that. I’m not placing blame or trying to guilt anyone who would be uncomfortable babysitting for us. I’m simply stating that this is another hard reality keeping us isolated from the outside world.

We Spend All Our Money on Medical Needs

Our lives are filled with medical appointments, procedures, equipment, home modifications, therapies, adaptive devices, time missed at work (assuming we even CAN work outside of taking care of our children).

Needless to say, we simply can’t go out to eat, grab drinks, or buy tickets to events. When the group goes out, we need to stay home. What was once just a normal Friday night activity, is now a luxury. The worst part of this reality is that when it comes to kids with disabilities, this reality doesn’t end. Our kids will always have these expenses.

We Get In Our Own Way

Sometimes the isolation of raising special needs kids comes from ourselves too. There are times we simply don’t have the energy.

I have a saying: If I’m awake, I’m tired. This special needs mom gig is exhausting, and it never lets up. So, on the rare occasion, we have the chance to get out with friends we’re probably too tired to really enjoy it.

Then, of course, there is the emotional energy it takes. Like I mentioned above, it’s hard for us to relate to others. Conversations are difficult. They’re difficult because it’s hard to talk about our situation. If we are honest and share our struggles it’s perceived as if we’re complaining and we don’t love our kids (which is why I added the disclosure to the top of this post). So, we feel the need to put on this mask and pretend that everything is all sunshine and rainbows. Why? Because the last thing we want is further isolation because of the negative perceptions that tend to come when we are honest and vulnerable.

Sometimes it feels like I live frozen in time. I can look around and see the world moving around me. I see other families growing, laughing, and enjoying life while we’re standing still. That’s what isolation feels like.

What Can We Do?

Isolation is real, I know I’m not the only special needs mom who struggles with this. If you’re a special needs parent like me, try to find time for self care. Make sure you’re working on your marriage. Get professional help if the isolation is consuming you and bringing on depression. Of course, remember all the blessings your special needs children bring to your life.

If you’re not a special needs mom, I simply ask that you don’t forget about us. I know it’s easy because we don’t run into each other at the kid’s activities; but, we’re still here. We need your friendship now more than ever.

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